"Nae that," Sean says with a tiny shake of his head. He still hasn't opened his eyes. "Fer this, I mean. I love ye more'n anythin', an' I wouldnae change any part o' this f'r the world, but I still wonder. Maybe if I'd... taken longer ta really find meself again, to 'member who I was 'fore I lost her 'fore pairin' up, maybe I wouldnae be so... maybe we'd've had an easier go o' things."